Sunday, October 30, 2011

Too busy?

Quick run-down of the week:  I did waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much this week.   Besides home schooling which should be enough for anyone, it was just one of those weeks where everything culminates at the same time.  Attending a baptism, preparing music and delivering it to everyone in the music group so they'd have time to practice before practice and trying to find more people to join to fill in some empty spots, carving pumpkins for family night, working on a song and teaching it to the young women, writing a skit for the young women to perform in an upcoming event that is way too close, fixing a leaking pipe, getting an oil change and finding out after that that I have an oil leak and have to take the car in tomorrow, having my battery die and figuring out how to jump a car with only me and the piano teacher, having piano lessons, quitting piano lessons for the holiday season, organizing and buying clothes that match or somewhat go together for family pictures, ironing and washing all those clothes for 6 people, taking family pictures twice, having pack night, going visiting teaching to two homes with my kids and their school work, quitting speech therapy because we can't afford it anymore, taking a thank you card to the speech therapist, going on a field trip with home schoolers to a grocery store, getting snacks for three soccer parties on Saturday one of which we are in charge of since Pat's the coach, doing yard work, running, and then finally today going to church for 4 hours since we had choir practice after church.  Oh yeah, and the usual making meals, housecleaning, diaper changing, story reading, grocery shopping fun we normally have.

My weeks are always busy, but this one was over the top with soccer ending, Halloween, and family pictures.  I don't like being under this much stress because I couldn't focus on my kids and I lost my temper a lot.   (Like when we were already late for soccer and Evan still couldn't find his shoes, so we tore apart the house even more, and I'm shrieking if anyone would ever put anything away then we might be able to find something, and eventually we gave up and grabbed some shoes out of the back yard that had been on the grass for at least 6 months and Pat had to clean the spiders out of them before E could wear them.)

I felt so bad about losing my temper.  I seem to be learning more patience as the years go by, but sometimes I just freak out.  I hope to be able to just say no someday when it's appropriate and not feel guilty.  I just read a great article pertaining to home schoolers and how they need to not answer the phone during the school time, or the door, and need to not let their church obligations keep them too busy to do their work well.  I think that could apply to any family, when it's involving time with their kids.  While I love serving in the church and community, if your own family is falling apart, or coming in second place, I don't think that's okay.  And a lot of the stuff I do, I fully take on myself so it's my fault.  I get an idea, and once I start it, I feel like I have to see it through.  So all I can do is pray that God will help me to see what is wise and best so that I do things with better judgement and prudence in the future.  To my children who will read this one day in the future- you guys are the best and I'm sorry I yelled at you!  I love you so much. 
The two small pumpkins are from our garden.  We carved pumpkins and then roasted the seeds with salt.  So good. 
We had our first snow of the year.  Dallas showing his frozen shirt he left outside. It's tied to a pole because it's the flag for his fort.

We had a fun trunk or treat at the church.   Wish you could see the feather on the back of Ln's head band.  She is too cute!

We took family pictures this week.  Twice.  I won't see how they turned out though for a couple weeks.  One was just $10 for a fundraiser-5 minute family picture and done- they'll mail it in two weeks.  The other my friend did for free, but I have to do some service to pay for them.  So she serves us if we'll serve others and write on her blog about what we did.  I'm doing my music group, and Pat's doing something else.
Saturday wrapped up the end of the boys soccer season, and we had three parties (one after each game was over).  We had lots of fun and the boys all really improved a lot.  It's difficult having three games every Saturday, and practices every week, but now that it's all done, it's going to feel a bit empty.  Dallas and Sam especially had good friends and soccer gave them the opportunity to see them consistently and play with them which they don't normally get to do since we home school.  We've come to know a lot of the families out there and it's nice to see them season after season.  It was funny because on D's team, 5 of the 9 boys were home schooled, and none of those were in our home school group.  Some are new friends and some we've seen for 3-4 years now.  I just thought that was cool. 
By the way, I didn't mean to make it sound like I was complaining about serving.  I enjoy it and I'm really grateful for the church programs since while I am helping in one place others are helping my children.  I am really blessed to have such wonderful scout leaders who watch over Dallas and run such a fun program for him.   He and Sam both love going to the church each week to do scouts and then they all play with their friends afterwards in the gym, while I'm finishing up with the young women.  And hopefully the mothers of the young women feel like we do a good job with them!

Now if you'll excuse me, it's 11:15pm and I have to go work on the skit and correct a weeks worth of work. 

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