My weeks are always busy, but this one was over the top with soccer ending, Halloween, and family pictures. I don't like being under this much stress because I couldn't focus on my kids and I lost my temper a lot. (Like when we were already late for soccer and Evan still couldn't find his shoes, so we tore apart the house even more, and I'm shrieking if anyone would ever put anything away then we might be able to find something, and eventually we gave up and grabbed some shoes out of the back yard that had been on the grass for at least 6 months and Pat had to clean the spiders out of them before E could wear them.)
I felt so bad about losing my temper. I seem to be learning more patience as the years go by, but sometimes I just freak out. I hope to be able to just say no someday when it's appropriate and not feel guilty. I just read a great article pertaining to home schoolers and how they need to not answer the phone during the school time, or the door, and need to not let their church obligations keep them too busy to do their work well. I think that could apply to any family, when it's involving time with their kids. While I love serving in the church and community, if your own family is falling apart, or coming in second place, I don't think that's okay. And a lot of the stuff I do, I fully take on myself so it's my fault. I get an idea, and once I start it, I feel like I have to see it through. So all I can do is pray that God will help me to see what is wise and best so that I do things with better judgement and prudence in the future. To my children who will read this one day in the future- you guys are the best and I'm sorry I yelled at you! I love you so much.
|The two small pumpkins are from our garden. We carved pumpkins and then roasted the seeds with salt. So good.|
|We had our first snow of the year. Dallas showing his frozen shirt he left outside. It's tied to a pole because it's the flag for his fort.|
|We had a fun trunk or treat at the church. Wish you could see the feather on the back of Ln's head band. She is too cute!|
Now if you'll excuse me, it's 11:15pm and I have to go work on the skit and correct a weeks worth of work.